I Didn’t get the Job

I didn’t get the job I applied for with the Portland Water Bureau. So, it’s time for me to take a step back and see where I could go next.

I was looking forward to what I could have achieved in the position with the Water Bureau, but it obviously wasn’t meant to be for me. But I am determined to find an opportunity that allows me to better reach my potential and make the kind of difference I know I could make.

I will admit having to leave Portland has me a bit nervous. It’s very hard for blind people to find work. About 75 percent of us are unemployed. It took me years to find this job. So, I’m grateful for what I have gotten from it. But it’s not close to a career for me.

I have seen postings for positions in Philadelphia and Chicago that interest me. If those haven’t closed, I may apply for them.

The timing of this sucks. It’s not how I wanted to go into the holidays. But I guess it’s a sign that I can’t settle. I have known I needed to leave the city of Portland to find a better opportunity. So, this speeds things up for me. I was hoping the water bureau job would be another step forward. Some kind of a transitional opportunity. But that will have to come somewhere else.

As a resident of Portland, I truly hope the person they hired is up to the work and cares as much about it as I care. For me, I sure hope it doesn’t take me long to find the kind of chance I crave. With luck, I may wind up better off than had I got the job. But things like this are never easy.

I’m going to take the holiday week to get ready to face the mountain of discrimination I must prepare to climb in order to get where I need to go. I will almost certainly have to fight through a lot of rejection. That got old when I was looking for this job. But it’s a part of the experience. It’s part of what has made me who I am today. So, I will try to enjoy the holiday and some time off. Starting next week, I will dig in for an experience I was hoping to avoid for a little while longer. But I guess that means I need the experience.

I don’t know if these rambles made sense. I felt a bit better putting them down though. If you know of possible jobs, let me know.